just jessica

{two weeks}

feels like two years..maybe more.

as of today i have been here two weeks. thats the longest i have ever been away from home and my family and i hate it. when i realized it had only been two weeks this morning i had somewhat of a meltdown. okay lets be honest, it wasnt somewhat of one, it was a huge meltdown. so to drown my sorrows i treated myself to a pint of this.. if you havent ever tried it. please do. go right now. it will make you feel like a fatty, it is the best.

im trying to make light of my current state of depression. i just got off skype with two of my favorite neighbor kids, nathan and lauren. they used to come over all the time to hang out with me. i feel like i abandoned them. they told me all about soccer and dance and school. i miss them.. i miss my neighborhood. i promised them i would see them soon. i sure hope i'll be able to. but im afraid if i go home i'll never come back. is it bad that i still havent unpacked? oops. i just cant quite bring myself to do it. longest, hardest, slowest, most emotionally and mentally draining two weeks of my life. thank you starbucks for creating ice cream..eventually you will be the death of me, but for right now you are my lifesaver.